LiFe

Finally i deal wif myself….. bringing myself down is no point… she won;t care …no one will bother …. even if i jump off the roof now … ppl still move on wif their life …. i hated myself alot ……. .. got to earn as much as possible…..most girls in sg may say they don’t care about money … trust me most of them are sluts…. money talks…. those in silkair worst…. pure bitches…. thats wat i used to think …. for now … i live for myself …. it’s stupid to live for someone … i work hard … i play hard…. enjoy life at it’s best …. blaming at how sucks the world is … why not make it a better world for myself…..

enjoying is part of life …….

gaming is wat i do in free time and at work….

but now sian…..

for a moment gaming becomes boring …………..

so wat should i do now……

now the world is like black and white …

every day play game ….

like a crouch potato….

i’m getting fatter…

no time to be wif my friends ….

sad all go army…

worst of all …

they all in armour unit…..

believe me it’s hell in there …..

if not some of my frenz spent too much time on cha bor (girls)……

in my theory one girl is enough ….

someone u wanna spent wif all your life …

too many girls will die …

lucky i got my beloved dear dear wif me …..

even if it’s a bad day for me …..

whenever i see her …..

or she is beside me …..

my life is no more boring …

my world is boring expect my dear dear …..

she brings colour to my world ……

i wonder wat my life will be like wif out her….

If you ever came to feel my pain
or drowned for a day in my lonely rain
you would know what its like to suffer in my hell
if you listened to the tales I have to tell
you would never again pass judgement on me
you may even understand why sometimes I flee
why I sometimes hide when the road gets rough
or run away when life gets tough
if you spent 60 seconds locked inside my head
you’d understand why life I dread
if you took a min to feel what I feel
you understand that my pain is so real
if you for once, choked on my tears
or had to fight through my fears
if you had to spend a day in my solitude
my nightmares you couldnt elude
the judgements you first passed would fade away
you would probably hit the ground and pray
to never again see the things that I’ve seen
to never experience the dreams that i dream

zzz. i’m going to aust soon … sad i gona miss my laopo ,my sister ,my cats.. damn all my uncles and aunts are dumping things at my place .. fuk them … cb knn …. take my place as a dustbin … all becoz my parents are not at singapore … they started to pick on me . worst of all my r and r cancel .. so noo shopping can’t get to see the stripbar .. can’t buy rockhamton candys and shirts…

sad , no one sent me testi …. my friendster very blank… lol … i having 4ntm guard duty this week very sian … nothing to do … next month full pack got 3 outfield and one ahm……. wonder when i can get to rest … and my darling getting sick i hope she recover soon… sad  

today i went for charity work at ace bluesky in suntec hall4 p3 ……. i woke up 7am …. very tired … set up the store ….. wash the things ….. wash apple …. guess what? i’m selling applestiz for children canncer foundation …. i’m sweet rite ?? got do shan shi … loll… it’s very easy to make.. first cut the apple into cubes then pour melted chocolates last put some nuts on it …. taste very nice … but the chocolates don’t know buy from where one ? but it’s very nice … at first i when to ask people whether they wanna try …. and i was not prepare . as in don’t no a single info about applestiz … like much it is … how it taste like … lol how loon tun of me rite … i was stunt when they ask me questions…

i went blur .. like stay there for few sec then say "wait har i go check "… later on then i find all the info i need then i went ask people … this time i was well prepare .. sadly … i haven open my mouth . they show their plam at my face .. damn they ask me to talk to their hand ….. later on i found a way to handlle those people … i show a sample at their face .. they stare at me .. i juz say "eat it .it’s free" … after they eat … then they will say nice … after that i bring out my butcher knife and cut cut their wallet … lol .. now i know promo items is like fishing … must put bait their … then they will come … no way talking to the fish … useless … singapore people all the same ….once they hear the word free … they will come to u … easy as that .. then things become easier to work .. but all my customer are little girls .. example secondary schools girls ….

they are so many of them … it’s so hard to handle so many little girls …. but it’s a nice exp … i learn how to deal with little girls … as long as they are singaporean … it’s the same theroy .but they like to jump up and down and scream here and there . like as if i’m andy lau .i know i handsome but  i feel pai seh . lol ….

    i enjoy my day today .. i get to work with my girlfriend and her friends mango , tau gay and peanut .. they all very hard working and friendly …

  after work i went supper with my sister .. lol she now having gastric pain lol… who ask her eat so fast ….

   lol i talk too much …. tomorrow back to what i good at … that is EAT AND SLEEP… lol

i today very tired … i work 2 to 11pm … boring day .. i woke up this morning and saw my cat ( tigger) srcatching her head … it’s bleeding .. i thinks i should cut it’s nails … i suppose to be late for work … lucky my cat woke my up …. i was sleepping then i felt something was licking my lips .. lucky i was not wet dreaming … i open my eyes and saw my cat licking my lips … gross …. i jump up of my bed …. imagine my cat eat finish it’s food , her it’s fur and licks it’s own butt after shitting .. and it’s lick my lips .. damn … i got a bad appetizer  from my cat early in the morning … don’t know why .. my cat likes to sleep beside me .. they got their own bed .. why wanna share my bed ? should i get them a bigger bed ? one sleep on my left side . one sleep on the right … sad . i can’t roll around in my bed … must keep still like zombie .. or else i would squash them .. then they would give a loud MEOW and woke me up … or worst they would srcatch my face again .. ..

       when i was working today my bro (joseph tay)came down to see me… damn he eat alot …. he is ggetting fatter .. i could’nt see his chin clearly … i think he should go diet .. he got a cool bike but he is fat as in getting fatter…

sad tomorrow have to go back camp .. boring .. camp is always boring .. doing the same thing again and again … if not do side kang … nothing much to do …

haiz……. i very sad le .. my pay juz come out only … now left less then 20%of the pay …. i spent alot on my cat … now i know keeping a pet is very expensive … worst of all i have two cat … they like to hug my face with their claws when i’m sleeping … pengz…. i didn’t not go to work today coz i’m not feeli ng well ..people arould me are falling sick … bad day …